This past week, several of my college friends graduated, reminding me that, of course, I did not.
I gave up on my photography degree a year ago. But I had given up photography in my heart long before that...
I went to university, knowing very little about photography other than it was my passion (besides being a fashion designer/seamstress, which seemed only slightly more frivolous at the time). My dream was to become a fashion photographer. I can pinpoint the exact image, the Vogue cover of Nicole Kidman shot by Irving Penn, that made me want to take pictures.
Do you know what the professors of fine arts photo classes hate?
Fashion photography.
So, okay, I guess I'll be an artist. That's what you tell yourself. You go through the motions.
It's bullshit. Along the way, I not only lost the drive to graduate college, I lost a hobby, a passion, a (in my opinion) really great potential talent.
Why do I bring all this up (again)? Because it's back.
I have been freed from so many constraints, recently, I find what was once an important part of me coming back.
An investment in my potential...and a very lovely large package from B&H. (no lectures, mom! I used doll money!)
All the film I already had, left over from college. Aught to keep me busy.
And the camera, proverbial dust brushed off. This used to be my mom's. I love it, it's trusty. Will take me a while to get used to again, though...it's been nearly 3.5 years since I last used it.
I gave up on my photography degree a year ago. But I had given up photography in my heart long before that...
I went to university, knowing very little about photography other than it was my passion (besides being a fashion designer/seamstress, which seemed only slightly more frivolous at the time). My dream was to become a fashion photographer. I can pinpoint the exact image, the Vogue cover of Nicole Kidman shot by Irving Penn, that made me want to take pictures.
Do you know what the professors of fine arts photo classes hate?
Fashion photography.
So, okay, I guess I'll be an artist. That's what you tell yourself. You go through the motions.
It's bullshit. Along the way, I not only lost the drive to graduate college, I lost a hobby, a passion, a (in my opinion) really great potential talent.
Why do I bring all this up (again)? Because it's back.
I have been freed from so many constraints, recently, I find what was once an important part of me coming back.
An investment in my potential...and a very lovely large package from B&H. (no lectures, mom! I used doll money!)
All the film I already had, left over from college. Aught to keep me busy.
And the camera, proverbial dust brushed off. This used to be my mom's. I love it, it's trusty. Will take me a while to get used to again, though...it's been nearly 3.5 years since I last used it.
2 comments:
Way to go! It is always hard to pick up old hobbies and passions, but it is lovely to hear that you are doing it anyway!
My sister studied fashion in college and is now getting her masters in photography. She is also really interested in fashion photography. Here is a series she just did for a final project: http://ashleerohnert.blogspot.com/2010/05/west-of-sun.html
Congrats on go free lance and doing your own thing. :)
That's really stinky that they killed your love of fashion photography. Professors can be so stinking stuffy! Fashion photography is FUN and it makes sense if you have a love of both fashion and photography!
PS, love your blog :) Just found it today!
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